If my friends and family didn't read I would blog about

• How my grandma has spent the last TEN years being fake to my face but calling me a slut behind my back
• How I hate hate hate that my husband plays softball two nights a week leaving me alone with the kids for 3 hours.
• How people who called themselves my friends are now going behind my back trashing me, and claiming not to, to my face.
• How much my family ignores my need to go on medication
• How I feel a few people in my family could use some medicine themselves
• How my mother in law constantly calls me fat
• How my mother in law spent almost 4 years of my relationship with my husband telling me ow much she loved my husbands ex
• How I wish my husband would open up a little more
• How I'm sick of being the fat girl and feeling totally unsexy
• How I want to be hit on. Even though I'm married I'm dying to be hit on. I want to feel desired rather then feel like someones mom.
• How I hate being to fat for my husband to pick me up and fuck me in the shower.
  
• How much I hate that he wants to do that but can't because he knows I'm too heavy (156 lbs)
• How hard it is to be a full time working mom who takes a kid to work.
• How much I want to move away from most of my family and shady friends and just start over
• How I feel like everyone tries to screw my parents
• How much my mom and I fight
• How I wish people could stop reading into my blog. Ie if I say the tree is green they will think I said that because they mentioned they don't like green and I was simply trying to piss them of.
• How I wish people would keep their fucking word
• How I want my husband to be more romantic, to notice me, compliment me, and spend time being totally happy that he married me
• How much I miss having my bed to myself and my husband
• That I'm filing bankruptcy and giving up both of my houses, my credit cards and MY CREDIT
• How often I think of running away
• How much I'm scared my husband will turn into his dad
• How often I fear I will turn into my mom
• How much I yell at my kids
• That I slapped my sons hand the other day and I now feel like a child abuser
• That I hate the secrets in my family. I hate how you tell one person something and 15 minutes later 3098250ujg people know about it and take it out of context
• How often my family comments on my husbands job, my choice in clothes, my weight, my kids behavior and so on
• How my grandma loves you more if your thin
• and sooo much more!